Friday, April 29, 2011

Another step closer

I picked up some of my OB records this morning (Long story short, I am working with a new agency so I have had to start all over). These records were from my sons birth in 2005. I haven't been into that OB/GYN office since my six week postpartum checkup. It definitely brought back great memories being in there, that's for sure. As I got back to my car, I pulled out the records to take a quick peek. A quick peek turned into 15-20 minutes of reminiscing. It was neat to see all of the doctors notes from each office visit when I was pregnant with my first child. It gave me a whole bunch of warm and fuzzies.

I thought I'd leave you with a few pictures of my Son, who will be 6 years old next month. Man, where does the time go?

 Welcome to the world my sweet, sweet child.
May 26th, 2005

7lbs. 15oz. 
21 Inches Long

And here is my Boy now. Such a handsome lil guy. This picture was taken this past Christmas. I can not believe he's already in Kindergarten, loosing his baby teeth, and soon turning six years old!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The Fight.

It has been almost a year since I started digging, whole-heartedly, in to this lovely world of Surrogacy. I can tell you one thing - I never thought in a million years I would be where I am at today. This whole "waiting game" is getting the best of me. I watch as some of my surrogate girlfriends are being matched up with Intended Parents; receiving their "golden box" of meds in the mail; transferring; finding out how many embies took; hearing about the wonderful relationships that they have with their Intended Parents; delivering their surro babies.......I want all of that so badly. It is starting to get really tough for me as I cheer on the side lines of other friends' journeys when I want my own journey so badly. Don't get me wrong, I am over-the-moon happy for the ladies that I am privileged enough to call my surro-friends, but damn it, when is MY time going to come!? Who knew that it would take me this long to become a gestational surrogate? I certainly had no clue. I totally thought I would be matched immediately upon filling out my application, when was it, in July of last year!? I figured I'd be matched and pregnant in no time. Boy, was I so, so very wrong. Nothing ever comes easy in Surrogacy and man have I come to finally realize that. There always seems to be some sort of hoops that you have to jump through. There is always something that blind-sides you. Always.

Its tough answering people when they ask "So,whats new with your surrogacy adventure?". Questions like this make me want to crawl in a hole and hide until the person leaves. Or maybe if I close my eyes long enough they will think I fell asleep? Hmmm, I think I just might try that one. If you want to know "whats new" with my journey, then please follow my blog. I keep it pretty up-to-date with what I am able to share at the moment. My fight to be a gestational surrogate is far from over. I have never worked so hard for something in my life, and when I finally succeed (which I will very soon!!), it will be the sweetest and most beautiful thing. Ever. (Ok, well, second sweetest and most beautiful thing ever, next to my husband and two children.)

Surrogacy, so far, has taught me so much patients. To chill out and let things happen the way they are meant to. To let go of what I can not control and let God and the Universe, in its own time, reveal whats in store for me.

So this is me, officially letting go, and letting God. 

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Checking in!!

It's almost been a month since my last post--sorry about that!! There's nothing really "new" to report just yet. BUT I am working on something stay tuned!! ;)

In the meantime I am still very active in the surrogacy world. I have grown very close with a handful of surro friends online. We chat every day and keep up-to-date with each other's journey. I couldn't ask for a stronger support system--I am so, so blessed!!

This last month has been super exciting for me. So many "surrogacy" related things happening--I love it. I was asked by an Intended Mother friend (who lives close by) to meet up and surprise her Surrogate who was in town for a visit. I am friends with both ladies online so it was nice to finally meet the both of them. I am meeting up with the both of them again this weekend to spend time while "J" is on a 5 day bed rest following her (hopfully) Sunday transfer!

"F" and "J", I truly believe that "God Gave Me You'. You both are more special than you will ever know. I wish you all the very, very best in your upcoming transfer and I look forward to cheering you on on the side lines as you bring the little one(s) into this world.
Love, Andrea

Another Surro friend was flying into LA for her transfer and I got word that she was coming alone. Her family was unable to make it, and her IPs live out of the Country. I offered to be with her during the transfer and stay for the day to keep her company while on bed rest. It was an amazing experience being able to sit in the room with her for the transfer. I was honored to be there and so grateful that she asked me to be in the room with her.

"C", I wish you all the best with this transfer. My fingers are still crossed for you!! I'm so glad to have met you--it's like we've known each other since high school. I love our daily chats and so thankful to have you as my new friend.
Love, Andrea

Here is the goodie basket that I made for her to enjoy while
 on bedrest--complete with pregnancy tests!!

We played around with makeup and fake eye lashes - FUN!!

And ended the *fun times* with facial masks!!

Lastly, but certainly not least! One of my Dearest Surro Friends received confirmation that she is pregnant with her surro-baby(ies) (<--I call twins)!!! I am so excited and happy for her and her IFs (Intended Fathers). Best wishes to them all!! I'm hoping and praying that I am able to make it for the delivery!! (well, in the waiting room at least, haha!)

Amy, Amy, Amy--If only we lived closer, is all I have to say. ;)
Love ya, Girlfriend!!!

Well, that's my update!! Until next time--I promise not to go another month without posting. I think what is brewing in my "surrogacy pot" is going to get hot here pretty quickly, if ya know what i mean!! ;) Stay tuned!!